I need noncon bl recommendations but (HEAR ME OUT)

Yes, I want to read noncon yaoi. But I don’t want any of those “he’s raping me, b-but why do I feel so good~?” Or “He’s doing this because he loves him, and he’ll love him too in the end, we’ll get a redemption arc~!” Bullcrap. Basically, yaoi manga/manhwas like jinx or painter of the night, I don’t like those. I need realistic psychology of the situation, nobody enjoys rape. So, if any of you got realistic noncon yaoi manga/manhwa with good art, I’d really appreciate it. Thanks y’all.